may the right person find this!!!

There are feelings which are a little more than friendship, but they don't convert into love; it's a friendship with a little extra topping of attached emotions! A little outburst from my side has distorted this topping a little bit...it's a small effort from my side to set it right.

He was the only thing on my conscious mind, since a few days. His features, so perfect, his eyes translucent like ice-tea but having the warmth of the evening sun, his manners; refined & smooth like old wine, his easy flow of confidence like care-free wind...all too good to be true..all packed in a golden wrapper of humbleness.

We were in the same college, but never really knew of each other's existence...until one day, we gave a passing glance to each other. That momentary interaction was enough for us to register each other. We started talking with the usaul hi-halo stuff & found that we shared similar tastes n even the same birthday. Our talks extended to daily chats/msgs. We had started to know each other in a short span of time. One day I overheard him talking to his friend about me & did not really like what I heard. I wanted to question him about it, but from that day he seemed to avoid me, not talk to me as we always did.

Exams were approaching & I got busy preparing and thought of solving the issue later. Soon it was the last day of exam & of college as well. I knew I could never see him again, the pain of parting was too much to bear. I was resolved to know what was the reason that he was keeping this distance from me without any reason! I was angry with him & in that minset, I said many things to him which I never should have. When I learnt the reason for his changed behaviour, I felt guilty...I regretted each bitter word which I had fired at him! I want to apologise, honeslty.

I know I have made a mistake and I only want one chance to improvise...to make things the way they were before! I do not know when he would read this. I do not know if he would ever read this. But I only hope it's not too late by the time he reads it!

frnz 4ever

Hello frnz..writing after long time..‘summers’ are over..& college has started in full swing..m glad to be back in college..after being in corporate world for 2 months..I have realized the true ‘value’ of college life..!! In college apart from studies n all u have the freedom to have fun, chill out with frnz, bunk a lecture or two..physically &/or ‘mentally’ hehe..but this cannot be done at office..!! But in the coming years this line would come true.. “you have money but no time to spend it..& few friends with whom you can spend it..” We all make promises to be in touch but it hardly happens..we do meet our friends virtually but that gap between reality widens once we get ‘settled’ in the so-called corporate world. The initial hang-outs turn to mere ‘hi-bye’ chats online and are further reduced to mere b-day wishes once a year!! Office colleagues start becoming friends and we start becoming mechanical with the routine! Then, once a while when we find an old group picture in our pc folder we are drawn back to the old college memories wishing to be together again..we may call a friend but the cycle of ‘m busy’ , ‘m in meeting’ , ‘m with gf/bf’, ‘m tired’ , ‘phir kabhi milte hai’ , ‘kal presentation hai’ , etc etc continues…& that ‘some time later’ time hardly arrives…!!! Gosh m getting too emotional…but its what gonna happens to us…but maybe we can change the picture a bit to…’ya sure Sunday movie’ , ‘haan pakaa’ , ‘ok then c u at my place’ , ‘also call up so-n-so’ , ‘booking done, catch u soon’ and make some more memories. These moments which we can together share when we grow really old and have all the time in the world rather than repenting later ‘yaar tab milna chahiye tha’ !!!!

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Hi,folks! many of my friends actually called me up to ask watz the matter with me..hehe..they had nvr seen this philosophical side of me!! My intention is not to complicate things for u..I just want u to luk at things in a certain angle which will hlep u seek wat u want n spread happiness!!
So, coming to a lighter aspect..a frnd of mine asked me wch is my fav colour..n I said I luv all colours. He insisted that there has to be one fav colour n I again said that I really like all colours! So he started giving me gyann..as to "I shud know what I like what I want from life n how can I be so indecisive...blah blah.."!!!
Now folks u tell me..for me all colours have their own significance. I mean its like asking someone "which of the five senses you like most?" Ofcourse we are incomplete even if one is missing!!!
I mean I like green coz i luv watching trees, blue coz of depth of the ocean, black coz its d colour of night which conveys even in silence, red,orange,yellow coz of the sun, violet coz its d colour of the thin line between night and day n white coz it the mixture of all these colours...It's like a person is white colour and he has to play many roles in life...on a personal & professional front,isn't it!! We identify the person with the colour he displays the most...right!! All roles have their own significance just like all colurs do. So folks, paint a colourful life for urself and for ur loved ones!!! Take care...

think agn!!

Well well...the previous post was too mind boggling...I agree,but that's not confusion for sure...A person who can seek a balance between these aspects is the winner for life...This is what I have learnt recently! It's about accepting certain things about urself...mind u,accepting not as a compromise...but it's about knowing yourself to the core.

So do u think u know urself very well? How many times has it happend that u 'thought' u know urself but ur mind played games with u...don't think of this as some climax of a suspense movie...these can be about small incidences...now u also need to be observant to know this! Folks, I am not making life complicated by making u think about such things...rather I feel if u give this a thought u will seek many unsought answers...answers to Q's which that were in some corner of ur mind, which u have not probably asked anyone... Mind u that the process can be annoying initially but soon ur sub conscious mind will feel cleansed and rejuvenated!! Try it! Digest it!

My Calling

Do you know what is the most complex thing on earth??
Think for a while...you may or may not get close to the answer...
It's the human mind!!! I am sure you agreed...
There are three areas of human life...one, he knows exists and he knows it...second, he knows it exists and he does not know it, and the third and the most important, he does not know it exists and obviously does not know about it...umm....confused?? Let me give an example : Area one, say language english...u know it exist & u know it. Area two, say language german...u know it exists & u don't know it. Area three, some alien language say from Mars...u don't even know it & obviously don't know it!!!

Don't think I am mad or somthing...give it a thougt u'l agree for sure. This third area holds the key to all ur answers, trust me on that...it's only how sooner u realise it!!!

Once u digest this, I'l speak more about it!!! Till then enjoy...by the way it rained so beautifully today...& I was luckily out...WOW...the smell of wet soil...the trees smiling happily after their bath...haa...Nature's unbeatable beauty!!!

It may take time to get what u want...but if u believe in urself...the wait is worth it!!!

I welcome myslef to this blogging world on behalf of everyone...

I was refraining myself to initiate a blog...coz i felt thoughts r to be penned down as in literally...but have finally decided to play with the keyboard as well...

Words have always affected me in a way that has a lasting impact on my thoughts...there were times when these thoughts used to drive me crazy and i used to wonder y am I so complicated...but now I know these thoughts are actually my strength coz they have the power to change things...change for the better...

Well,this is just the introduction to my personality!!!A long way to go....haha